𝕊𝕥𝕒𝕪 𝕎𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕖 #𝟚
🌹𝔼𝕧𝕖𝕟 𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕀’𝕞 𝔾𝕠𝕟𝕖🌹
𝔹𝕪: Nicole Fiorina
𝔾𝕖𝕟𝕣𝕖: Contemporary, New Adult, Dark Romance, Angsty AF!
ℝ𝕖𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝔻𝕒𝕥𝕖: November. 04, 2019
The second book in a heart-consuming series.
Forget everything you thought you knew. Hell, I don’t even know myself anymore. For seven months I’ve been gone only to come back to be tested in every way possible. They say keep your enemies close, and my demons welcomed me back with open arms. My downfall is a necessary evil. But Mia is my endgame.
Seven months ago, Ollie surrendered to the darkness, abandoning me in the process. He stripped me of my walls only to leave me defenseless. Now he’s back, along with fresh new faces and obstacles standing in our way. He says trust no one. Not even him. How am I supposed to be strong for us both when I’m losing my grip?
❝ Just stay with me, Mia.❞
❝ Even when you’re gone?❞
❝ Especially when I’m gone.❞
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♡🌹 𝕄𝕪 ℝ𝕖𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 🌹♡
❝ He was both the hero and villain in our love story, saving me only to ruin me.❞
Even When I’m Gone is book two in the Stay With Me Series by Nicole Fiorina. Let me just start off by saying, this book, as well as Stay With Me, has completely wrecked me! This is a three-book series so book one MUST be read first. If you have not read Stay With Me yet, you may want to skip this review, as there may be spoilers.
With that said, you know how some series, they usually peak at book one and then it’s all downhill after that? Well, I was worried that would be the case with Stay With Me and Even When I’m Gone. As freaking AMAZING as SWM was, I thought nooo freakin way could EWIG be anywhere even close to as captivating as that… yeaaa I was wrong!
It has taken me two weeks to sit down and finally write this review, and STILL, I doubt I’ll be able to properly express just how AMAZING this story really is. These books are far from an easy read. The journey we are on with Mia and Ollie is intense and most definitely not for the faint of heart, but I promise you, you won’t find ANYTHING like this emotional, gripping series!
❝ For a love everlasting,
make her roses out of paper.
For a love as poetic,
make her roses out of literature.
And if you’re really lucky enough to find both,
remind her every damn day.❞
There is no way I can review Even When I’m Gone without first talking about Stay With Me. Stay With Me is where we first learn of Dolor Reformatory Collage, as where we first meet Mia and Ollie. EWIG begins seven months later from where the story left off.
In Stay With Me, we have Mia, who felt absolutely nothing. But Ollie, Ollie felt EVERYTHING. Now, in Even When I’m Gone, their roles have reversed and it’s Mia’s turn to bring Ollie back from the darkness that his medicated mind has engulfed him in.
❝ I want you to love me anyway,” a single, lost tear trickled down his cheek, “Give me a year to get better, and I’ll give you a lifetime.❞
But the process will be a heartbreaking, grueling one. If you think Ollie went through hell trying to save Mia from herself, you haven’t seen anything yet…
❝ She was my life source, and even though I was confused by a lot. I was certain of one thing: I needed her. Like breathing, I fucking needed her.❞
The second half of Even When I’m Gone, has things FINALLY improving for Ollie and Mia… But this book is a rollercoaster of emotions and just when you think it’s OK to finally take a breath… BAM! The angst will slap you right across the face!
❝ The thing was, Ollie had known what I’d needed to get me to this place. He’d, somehow, known the very thing I’d needed to break down my walls was by him pushing and pushing me and never letting go.
And I knew exactly what Ollie needed this very moment.
The only way to get Ollie back was to give him the girl without emotion. The girl without feelings. The fucking sociopath—the girl he fought so hard for once upon a time.❞
❝ The cruel irony is
you are my forever
but not my right now.❞
Even When I’m Gone is an emotionally, devastating, heartbreaking, new adult romance filled with so much angst that it will rip your heart to shreds only to turn around and piece it back together again. Just when I think that there can’t possibly be any more twists and that I’m starting to figure things out, BAM! I LOVE books that leave me guessing (because usually, I know what’s what right off the jump) but not EWIG! Fiorina kept me on my toes until the very last page, and even then, I was still guessing!
❝ There may be a storm inside my head,
but never get between me and my heart.
That is a battle you will lose every time.❞
The constant build-up in this book had my heart beating out of my chest… I was so anxious the entire time I was reading. I am so invested in these characters, and their relationship. There were some scenes where I couldn’t catch my breath because I had been holding it for so long, some scenes where I was literally shaking while reading because I was so upset with the choices they were making. My heart couldn’t catch up!
❝ Because love is constant. When you love someone, you can be angry with them, you can hate them, you can be upset or disappointed in them, but you never stop loving them because love endures all other emotions.❞
I have NEVER, EVERRR cried as much as I have while reading these two books you guys! Nicole Fiorina is KILLING IT! I may or may not have a mini girl crush on her. I mean how can you not? Did you see her DEBUT novel? Shit like this just doesn’t usually come from a FIRST RELEASE! But here she is, with her SECOND release, killing it all over again! Nicole has created these perfectly imperfect, flawed characters that you will love anyways. They make mistakes, they fucked up, but still, you know who THEY are and you can’t help but continue to root for them. The way Fiorina composes this poetic dialogue, absolutely amazing. I highlighted so much of this book that it took me an hour just to go through and figure out which quotes I would add to my review because if I had added everything I highlighted there would have been nothing left for you to read!
Nicole Fiorina, remember the name ya’ll because I have a feeling we will be seeing a whole lot more of it EVERYWHERE!
❝ Sometimes all we need
is someone who will
sit in the dark with us.❞
I was so empathetic towards both, Ollie and Mia. I’ve dealt with my own mental health issues and in some aspects, I could relate to BOTH of them in different ways. I am so, so invested in this book, and these characters. BRAV-FUCKING-O Nicole, I know I said it already but YOU ARE FUCKING KILLING IT!
❝ We’re Ollie and Mia. Not some bloody love story or fairy tale. Those all have endings… Real love never dies.❞
There is so much character growth with Mia in EWIG. She has overcome so much and STILL, she continues to battle. Battle her own mind, battle for Ollie and his love, battle an unknown prankster who is determined to hurt her… that girl is so much stronger then she gives herself credit for.
❝ Because just as much as she was all— consuming, she was imperfect and honest—the representation of love. Consuming. Imperfect. Honest.❞
My Ollie 💜 He is such a beautiful, brilliant, unique soul. I fell in love with Ollie in SWM, but in EWIG, I felt so, so, so much more for him. We learn a lot more about Ollie’s background, and all the things that he had to endure as a child and as a young teen. Seeing who Ollie turned into while he was on those god awful meds… KILLED ME! In EWIG, Ollie wasn’t the Ollie that we all know and love. There were quite a few scenes that were literally hard to stomach, but I just tried to keep remembering, THIS wasn’t Ollie. Not our Ollie and afterward, no one could hate him more than he hated himself.
❝ If you don’t walk out of here with Mia, know there are other fish in the sea.❞
In an instant, my smile faded. “You don’t get it. Mia is the sea.❞
I swear Ollie and Mia can’t catch a break. It’s one turmoil after another. They went through a lot in Stay With Me, but in Even When I’m Gone, I feel like EVERY single thing they went through was destined to tear them apart. But I absolutely love seeing their love push on through every single trial and tribulation. They prove time and time again, soulmates really do exist.
❝ Utterly stripped, unarmed, and exposed, the unity of us was a beautiful thing, and there was only one word to describe it.
The secondary characters, I was really upset with most of them. All because of a cruel prank Mia, who at that point had already “lost” Ollie, then lost almost EVERYONE who was SUPPOSED to be her friend. Turns out they didn’t care nearly as much about her as they once claimed too. I will say, Mia, forgave way to easy. Which was yet again another way we saw how just how much more Mia had grown.
❝ You’re Mia and Ollie. Never broken, only bent.❞
Then there was Zeke. The relationship that both Mia and Ollie have with him is the sweetest thing ever. We saw a little of that in SWM but we saw a lot more of the connection they both have with him, and him with each of them, in EWIG. Finding out Ollie’s plans for him and Zeke, as well as Mia, when they were finally able to get out of Dolar makes me Ollie him even more. I can’t even write about Zeke… 😭😭😭
❝ I just needed someone to hold me because when my eyes closed, the ache surfaced. Ollie wasn’t here to take it away, but Ethan was.❞
Ethan Scott became a very big part of the story this time around. We first met Ethan as the police officer who came to Dolar after the incident between Mia and Ollie’s brother Oscar. This time around, he is a security officer at Dolar and the seven months that Ollie has been gone, he’s developed a very unique relationship with Mia. He became her friend and her confidant when she had no one else.
❝ You’re desperate, I know, but
his touch is never going to fix it.
You’re empty, I know, but
he can never fill the place I once did.
I warned you, my love, but
you’re stubborn and never listen.❞
That ending, that epilogue… OMG, I am STILL speechless. I just KNEW that there was more going on, but just when I thought I had figured it out, something would happen and it would throw me off the trail. BUT, what ACTUALLY is going on, yea I NEVER saw that coming!!! SPEECHLESS!! Now I’m left feeling a plethora of emotions that I STILL haven’t been able to work out yet. Talk about a book hangover!!!
❝ Perhaps you were here to remind everyone that
angels are real,
in the shape of humanity and the color of grace.
And for a brief moment in time,
we all sang the same song.❞
Stay With Me and Even When I’m Gone are not only on my Top Reads Of 2019 list, but they are also on my top reads EVER list and I highly doubt they’ll be knocked off any time soon! Now I am impatiently waiting for book three. I HIGHLY, HIGHLY RECOMMEND checking out Stay With Me and Even When I’m Gone.
❝ Consuming, timeless, unselfish, love. I’d loved you in my darkest hour when I wasn’t myself, and I’ll love you in every lifetime after this.❞
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♡ℂ𝕠𝕟𝕗𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕆𝕗 𝔸 𝔹𝕚𝕓𝕝𝕚𝕠𝕡𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕖’𝕤 𝕆𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕒𝕝𝕝 ℝ𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘♡
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ – SIX STARS FOR AN ABSOLUTELY FUCKING AMAZING STORY! There’s not much else I can say to convince you of how absolutely devastatingly awesome this story is. Even When I’m Gone will have you on a rollercoaster of emotions and just when you think it’s OK to finally take a breath… BAM! The angst will slap you right across the face! The constant build-up in this book had my heart beating out of my chest… I was so anxious the entire time I was reading. I am so invested in these characters, and the journey they are on. Nicole Fiorina, you are fucking amazing my love! You have come into this book world kicking and screaming, if you haven’t heard of Nicole yet, trust me you will soon! With just TWO releases under her belt, she is quickly becoming an author to watch out for! If you haven’t started this journey with Ollie and Mia yet, what are you waiting for?! BUY THIS BOOK!
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 – Mia and Ollie together are the definition of SMOKING HOT! I have NEVER seen a couple that is so clearly meant for each other the way Ollie and Mia are, and when the two of them come together, they damn near combust!
🌪🌪🌪🌪🌪 ℂ𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕗𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕎𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 – If you thought Stay With Me‘s cliffhanger did you in, you haven’t seen anything yet! Even When I’m Gone is only book two of a three-book series so there is still a LOT more of Mia and Ollie to come!
⚠️ 𝕋𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕎𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 – There is a sufficient warning at the beginning of this book. This series deals with depression, suicide, as well as many other mental illnesses and subjects that could be considered triggers. THIS IS NOT AN EASY READ!
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♡𝔾𝕣𝕒𝕓 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕔𝕠𝕡𝕪 𝕠𝕗 𝔼𝕎𝕀𝔾 𝕥𝕠𝕕𝕒𝕪!♡
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A couple other quotes from Even When I’m Gone that I couldn’t fit into my review, but didn’t want to not add to my blog post!
❝ Her body was my kingdom come.
Her divine kiss was my salvation.
Her soul was mine’s paradise.
Mia was my evermore.❞
❝ All I’m saying is, I would’ve given her an
eternity plus a day past crestfallen.❞
❝ And the saint fell in love with the sociopath…❞
❝ Let’s runaway with freedom in our eyes,
to a place measured in rapture,
and clocks a sign of the times.
We could chase the moon,
outrun the sun.
No cages to keep us hostage, only bound by love.
Let’s catch fire and dance in the wind.
Forget this fucking place,
let’s just …
r u n a w a y …❞
*SIGH* I love Ollie ♡
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♡ 𝔸𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝔸𝕦𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕣 ♡
Nicole Fiorina is an independent author, debuting her first book, Stay With Me, the first novel in a series. She lives in Florida with her loving husband, Michael, two children, Christian and Grace, and Great Dane, Winston.
She doesn’t write because she likes to, she writes because she needs to, but it wasn’t until a car accident she suffered from (and recovered from), when she received that push to follow her dreams. Her writing style is unapologetic and emotional, striving to push buttons, hearts, and limits. Nicole’s books fall under New Adult, Contemporary Romance, as well as fantasy in the near future.
A lover of music, especially classic rock, she can rap most Eminem songs, dances, dabbles on the piano, and likes to use power tools and a paintbrush. She’s addicted to coconut berry Red bull, coffee, and root beer, and makes sure to force down water to appease her mother. When she’s not writing, she’s probably chauffeuring her kids around, at family gatherings, or sleeping.